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9:51 PM
i had another dream.
tis time is different.
very different.
i dreamt we walked different paths.
u rode off on ur white horse with a firm pillar of support and assurance.
hahaa..
9:43 PM
suddenli felt that some songs realli have great meaning in them.
strong feelings that reflect on our lives.
now i understand that songs are not jus whether they are nice or not nice.
it is e meaning of the songs.
i should be happie when ur heart is being mend,
when u are being loved,
when u are not living in the past,
there is still a strange feeling.
is it envy? or is it jealousy? or is it yi han?
confused.
i had some good new frenx=)
willy
bros before holes!
rene
another best buddy to be
anna + jason
freaking pros in pool.
lol
tis 2 days of work was like freaking fun.
eat.
play pool.
supper.
both day went home @ 4plus am..
play pool like 9hrs in 2days and it was midnite pool.
lol.
glad to noe all u ppl=)
9:30 PM
i had tis dream yest..
a dream that i had e most frequency..
maybe is cos i miss u ba..
is that a hint from my soul to tell mi wad to do..
i duno..
cos it jus seem so impossible now..
i dun intend to change ur life..
cos ur life is well lived now..
i cant comfirm i m needed..
for there are so many clustered around u @ all times..
bud yea..
i still miss u.
10:25 PM
do u believe in luck?
some1 calls and said that u have won a air tix to all around the world
and the whole journey was 45days..
1 tix cos $60000.
i couldnt make it so they are able to cash back to mi..
and i was able to get $48000.
however a fee of 3600 was required to be paid in advance for lawer fees..
now..
e ques is..
DO U BELIEVE IN LUCK..
i somehow believed..
somehow after all e calls and things i checked..
they seemed real..
bud there were few uncertainitys..
i wanted to pay em and get tt lump sum of money..
i jus felt the chances if they are real or some con session were 50 50..
realli wanted to try cos if its real..
den fark it liao..
in e end.. i was not able to try..
so if all these were real..
i will be FARKING SIAN!!
48k..
near to my goal of getting a car..
but again..
DO U BELIEVE IN LUCK..
10:18 PM
today i read ur blog..
u seem to be troubled..
stress abt something..
i duno if u are toking abt us..
i didnt makes things sound or do things
that makes u feel that its all ur fault..
seriousli i didnt..
so plsssssss.. dun feel that way k..
i duno y i dun feel glad to c myself being mention in ur blog..
i appear to be e evil 1 now..
4 so long i didnt c name in ur blog even after surprises or wad..
now finalli i know i appeared in ur blog,
i seem to be a devil harrassing ur life..
its abt how i m making u suffer..
i no longer long to be mentioned..
a story begins like tis..
a couple started their love journey on 05th of march
this pair of couple was deepli in love..
swore that both could not live without each other..
been throu lots and lots of thicks and thins together..
happie times..
sad times..
so much memorable events together..
thou there were countless quarrels..
they always get back together..
they thought they were strong..
but it was still yet to be..
new environment, new friends, new lifestyle
had given them a new challenge..
the guy was not able to understand her enuf,
too overprotective
too restictive
didnt trust the gal enuf..
the gur was not able to give the guy e assurance,
sees restriction as pressure
wanted more freedom..
it was fragile..
they both didnt noe..
harsh decisions between them was made
it could never been taken back..
love is not something like a childs play..
love requires understanding, trust, committment..
it is not something i can acheive now..
somehow i lack of essential qualities..
sorrie for not being a good bf..
i promised not to make u cry..
bud i always do..
i promised to always make u happie..
bud i always let u have life like wad u are having now..
i m sorrie..
u will find the 1..
some1 so much better den mi..
as long as he brings u all e happiness that i cant..
love,
QaD
9:47 PM
need money!!
need a lot of money..
hahaa..
goin to learn driving..
goin to do a lot of things xia..
bud my bank onli gort like how much money now..
hahaaa...
sad..
started work today..
samsung n tuition..
hahaha..
cannot bon liaox..
no income means no fun=/
work work............
11:26 AM
true things are hanging..
bud i think it will get better now..
sorrie 4 making u feel that way..
bud nobody is in fault for the change..
i dun think i put it that way..
so dun think too much k?
yea.. maybe not hard enuf..
bud i m quite tired le..
things arent realli as easy as we all c..
haha.. how things should be..
doesnt make a diff if we all know now..
let nature take its course yea?
rmb e question i asked u during that supper?
e future shall be up to fate=)
8:12 PM
another sad thing..
haixx..
after hearing a fren's life..
realli dun understand why..
some ppl live with exp cars driving gurs around..
some ppl live with no worries in life..
some ppl wasting their time like as if they are not impt..
bud y some ppl have to suffer so much..
if onli life between every1 can be balanced..
however, u will grow up strong..
nth more worse than wad u had encounter will happen anymore..
definateli u have things we normal ppl will not have..
trust mi..
life will be better in future..
i will always be here 4 u, fren..
bless u jer
8:07 PM
hmm.. pretty sad..
when i heard abt a news of my fren..
william..
left us due to a car accident..
realli sad..
william realli was a nice nice guy..
good results, good frenx..
had jus met him some time ago b4 his accident..
realli shock to hear e news..
i could realli c tt his future was bright..
and lots of things he still wanna accomplish..
fate is always playing on us..
we will live on well for u as well Wil..
u are always a good fren of us 4ever..
we love u
8:03 PM
went kbox a lot recentli..
hahaha..
1 time with JJ and sam..
guys nite..
asses edwin n gaoli pangsei again..
hahaaa.. at least edwin met up after tt to play xbox with us..
a lot of boxes here n there=)
gaoli la..
always like tt..
xbox was fun..
addictive..
sam, jj..
mi n edwin sure pawn u 2 nex time..
ahaha.. we went throu secret trng de..
lol..
i tell u sth oso..
i beat edwin once in fifa..
serious..
okie once onli..
lol..
2nd time of kbox was with reylere albert n her sis..
kinda sad realli..
cos reylereeeeeeeeeee is leaving sg for london..
haixx...
will miss u gur..
take good care there arr..
come back maybe gort angmo boyfren xia..
maybe!!
hahahahaha..
2 crazy gals i have to say..
tis 2 sisters sing like running maraton..
lol..
we ate kbox buffet and sing @ e sing time..
reylere eat 1st, den rachel sing 1 verse..
den reylere continue den rachel eat..
LOL..
zai zai..
mi n albert busy eating=P
was a great nite..
bud realli gonna miss u gur..
miss mi oso hoh..
ahahahah
7:58 PM
okiee ppl!!
starting afresh..
hahaa.. had been some time since i changed my nick to
"STARTING AFRESH.. i live my life now!!"
shall update on tis..
okie..
sad to say, i now den started afresh..
hahaaaa..
dun ask y=)
bud yea..
life now..
quite okie..
hanging out with frenx..
spending time @ home..
slacking around, listening to some nice music..
n i realli have to say..
frenx out there..
those hu i had not been contacting pls start to contact mi
we must start to keep in touch liao..
hahahaha..
7:53 PM
new start @ my blog..
thankx to sab 4 helping mi made tis blog..
haha..
has been quite some time..
i shall update abt some things of my life now..
bud wun be updating so often ba..
cos writing diaries realli kinda not my cup of tea..
hahaaaa..
thankx 4 all my frenx=D
love u all..
thankx sab once again=))
7:50 PM