_just me_
_just me_
_just me_
_just me_
_just me_
_just me_
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9:51 PM
i had another dream.
tis time is different.
very different.
i dreamt we walked different paths.
u rode off on ur white horse with a firm pillar of support and assurance.
hahaa..
9:43 PM
suddenli felt that some songs realli have great meaning in them.
strong feelings that reflect on our lives.
now i understand that songs are not jus whether they are nice or not nice.
it is e meaning of the songs.
i should be happie when ur heart is being mend,
when u are being loved,
when u are not living in the past,
there is still a strange feeling.
is it envy? or is it jealousy? or is it yi han?
confused.
i had some good new frenx=)
willy
bros before holes!
rene
another best buddy to be
anna + jason
freaking pros in pool.
lol
tis 2 days of work was like freaking fun.
eat.
play pool.
supper.
both day went home @ 4plus am..
play pool like 9hrs in 2days and it was midnite pool.
lol.
glad to noe all u ppl=)
9:30 PM
i had tis dream yest..
a dream that i had e most frequency..
maybe is cos i miss u ba..
is that a hint from my soul to tell mi wad to do..
i duno..
cos it jus seem so impossible now..
i dun intend to change ur life..
cos ur life is well lived now..
i cant comfirm i m needed..
for there are so many clustered around u @ all times..
bud yea..
i still miss u.
10:25 PM
do u believe in luck?
some1 calls and said that u have won a air tix to all around the world
and the whole journey was 45days..
1 tix cos $60000.
i couldnt make it so they are able to cash back to mi..
and i was able to get $48000.
however a fee of 3600 was required to be paid in advance for lawer fees..
now..
e ques is..
DO U BELIEVE IN LUCK..
i somehow believed..
somehow after all e calls and things i checked..
they seemed real..
bud there were few uncertainitys..
i wanted to pay em and get tt lump sum of money..
i jus felt the chances if they are real or some con session were 50 50..
realli wanted to try cos if its real..
den fark it liao..
in e end.. i was not able to try..
so if all these were real..
i will be FARKING SIAN!!
48k..
near to my goal of getting a car..
but again..
DO U BELIEVE IN LUCK..
10:18 PM
today i read ur blog..
u seem to be troubled..
stress abt something..
i duno if u are toking abt us..
i didnt makes things sound or do things
that makes u feel that its all ur fault..
seriousli i didnt..
so plsssssss.. dun feel that way k..
i duno y i dun feel glad to c myself being mention in ur blog..
i appear to be e evil 1 now..
4 so long i didnt c name in ur blog even after surprises or wad..
now finalli i know i appeared in ur blog,
i seem to be a devil harrassing ur life..
its abt how i m making u suffer..
i no longer long to be mentioned..
a story begins like tis..
a couple started their love journey on 05th of march
this pair of couple was deepli in love..
swore that both could not live without each other..
been throu lots and lots of thicks and thins together..
happie times..
sad times..
so much memorable events together..
thou there were countless quarrels..
they always get back together..
they thought they were strong..
but it was still yet to be..
new environment, new friends, new lifestyle
had given them a new challenge..
the guy was not able to understand her enuf,
too overprotective
too restictive
didnt trust the gal enuf..
the gur was not able to give the guy e assurance,
sees restriction as pressure
wanted more freedom..
it was fragile..
they both didnt noe..
harsh decisions between them was made
it could never been taken back..
love is not something like a childs play..
love requires understanding, trust, committment..
it is not something i can acheive now..
somehow i lack of essential qualities..
sorrie for not being a good bf..
i promised not to make u cry..
bud i always do..
i promised to always make u happie..
bud i always let u have life like wad u are having now..
i m sorrie..
u will find the 1..
some1 so much better den mi..
as long as he brings u all e happiness that i cant..
love,
QaD
9:47 PM
need money!!
need a lot of money..
hahaa..
goin to learn driving..
goin to do a lot of things xia..
bud my bank onli gort like how much money now..
hahaaa...
sad..
started work today..
samsung n tuition..
hahaha..
cannot bon liaox..
no income means no fun=/
work work............
11:26 AM
true things are hanging..
bud i think it will get better now..
sorrie 4 making u feel that way..
bud nobody is in fault for the change..
i dun think i put it that way..
so dun think too much k?
yea.. maybe not hard enuf..
bud i m quite tired le..
things arent realli as easy as we all c..
haha.. how things should be..
doesnt make a diff if we all know now..
let nature take its course yea?
rmb e question i asked u during that supper?
e future shall be up to fate=)
8:12 PM
another sad thing..
haixx..
after hearing a fren's life..
realli dun understand why..
some ppl live with exp cars driving gurs around..
some ppl live with no worries in life..
some ppl wasting their time like as if they are not impt..
bud y some ppl have to suffer so much..
if onli life between every1 can be balanced..
however, u will grow up strong..
nth more worse than wad u had encounter will happen anymore..
definateli u have things we normal ppl will not have..
trust mi..
life will be better in future..
i will always be here 4 u, fren..
bless u jer
8:07 PM
hmm.. pretty sad..
when i heard abt a news of my fren..
william..
left us due to a car accident..
realli sad..
william realli was a nice nice guy..
good results, good frenx..
had jus met him some time ago b4 his accident..
realli shock to hear e news..
i could realli c tt his future was bright..
and lots of things he still wanna accomplish..
fate is always playing on us..
we will live on well for u as well Wil..
u are always a good fren of us 4ever..
we love u
8:03 PM
went kbox a lot recentli..
hahaha..
1 time with JJ and sam..
guys nite..
asses edwin n gaoli pangsei again..
hahaaa.. at least edwin met up after tt to play xbox with us..
a lot of boxes here n there=)
gaoli la..
always like tt..
xbox was fun..
addictive..
sam, jj..
mi n edwin sure pawn u 2 nex time..
ahaha.. we went throu secret trng de..
lol..
i tell u sth oso..
i beat edwin once in fifa..
serious..
okie once onli..
lol..
2nd time of kbox was with reylere albert n her sis..
kinda sad realli..
cos reylereeeeeeeeeee is leaving sg for london..
haixx...
will miss u gur..
take good care there arr..
come back maybe gort angmo boyfren xia..
maybe!!
hahahahaha..
2 crazy gals i have to say..
tis 2 sisters sing like running maraton..
lol..
we ate kbox buffet and sing @ e sing time..
reylere eat 1st, den rachel sing 1 verse..
den reylere continue den rachel eat..
LOL..
zai zai..
mi n albert busy eating=P
was a great nite..
bud realli gonna miss u gur..
miss mi oso hoh..
ahahahah
7:58 PM
okiee ppl!!
starting afresh..
hahaa.. had been some time since i changed my nick to
"STARTING AFRESH.. i live my life now!!"
shall update on tis..
okie..
sad to say, i now den started afresh..
hahaaaa..
dun ask y=)
bud yea..
life now..
quite okie..
hanging out with frenx..
spending time @ home..
slacking around, listening to some nice music..
n i realli have to say..
frenx out there..
those hu i had not been contacting pls start to contact mi
we must start to keep in touch liao..
hahahaha..
7:53 PM
new start @ my blog..
thankx to sab 4 helping mi made tis blog..
haha..
has been quite some time..
i shall update abt some things of my life now..
bud wun be updating so often ba..
cos writing diaries realli kinda not my cup of tea..
hahaaaa..
thankx 4 all my frenx=D
love u all..
thankx sab once again=))
7:50 PM
wORrieD abt u
weLl..
mi n xTx went to waTch iNitiaL D!
nOt baD..
quIte nIcee..
haha..
i lYk e racIn part..
q excItiN..
lYk daYtoNaa..
wahHAa..
todaE xTx haben mSg mi Yet..
these feW daEx sHe seeM to b quite mOOdy..
dUno waDs wroNG lehx..
waitiN 4 ur msg..
thiinkin of yaa..
coUld u b sleepIn lIt pIggy?
wahHaa..
thiNK sO..
skOol mUst b prettY streSs..
okiee..
v stress..
cos v lOng nv c e hyPer craZey-but-norMal xTx le..
wahHAa..
weLl..
i jUx hOpe u to b hapPiee..
ani unhaPpie things teLL mi k?
teLL mi le..
wiLL feeEl beta de..
deN caN 4get e troUble more easiLy..
deN u wiLl enJoy urseLf beta=p
hAhaa..
xTx..
sWeet dreAms..
sLeep tighT tIght!!
loVee u babY
BiG bIG hUgx 4 u!!
hehe=p
waN aN!!
12:06 AM
haPPie or saD?
todaE waS a haPPie daEee
went ouT wIf my xTx..
waTCh mOviee..
waS tO waTch ghOst traIn aCtuaLLi de..
bUd went tt tiMe sae no mOre liaOxx..
dot..
feEl quite cheaTed by e searCh oNLinee..
haixx..
xTx waS qUite saD lo..
we bOth waNted tO waTch it badLi..
nvM..
we chaNged n went tO waTch
wahHA..
movIe was Nicee
quIte nIcee..
we Bot nOrMal tiX..
act can get coUple seats 1..
bUd i hear tiLL cornEr seaTs..
*slaY mi*
wahHAa..
den maKe xTx a lIt uNhapPie agaIn..
sorriee=p
hahAa..
hOwever e theatRe waS lyk sO eMPty..
sO when e shOw staRted
we chaNge oVer to e lOver seaTs..
wahHAa..
v shuaNg..
goRt soFa 1..
bUd hOhx..
e usher caMe in spOt checK..
diAoxx..
hAhaa..
deN we mOVed baQ to oUr seaTss..
wwahHAa..
sad lo..
oNce agAin..
nvm..
tmL we gO there waTch agAin..
i mUSt grab e coUple seaTss..
wahAha..
weLl.. afTer i reaCh hOmee..
check bLog..
saw xTx bLog..
feeL quite sad 4 Her..
coS she's goIn to have aNother hard tIme le..
haI..
frEnx aRe nOt suPpose tO b lYk tt..
freNx are thEre to shAre..
freNx aRe there tO heLP when e persoN neeDs..
freNx aRe there to encoUrage eaCh other..
freNx aRe there tO leNd e otHer persoN a listEnIn eaR
freNx dUn eXpect aNi paYbaCks froM eacH other..
freNx aRe tHere tO undersTand 1 anOther..
freNx sHOuld haV 100% truSt in eaCh other..
it aLL jUx come froM e heaArt..
freNx are Not sUppose tO blAme eacH other..
freNx are Not sUppOse to eXpect huI bAo from eaCh other..
freNx are thEre to lIsteN to waD e other person hAve to sae..
nOt force e persoN tO saY things thEy dun wanNa sae..
freNx are not sUppOse to sae thIngs tt hUrt eaCh other..
it coUld b soMe faCts bUd it can b phraSed in a nIcer waE sO it wuN hurt e persoN..
MOst iMportantli if u treat UrseLf aS a freN of e Other..
when e freN iS saD or troUbled by u,
pLss..
refLect n thiNk wad have u done to hUrt ur freN..
cOs freNx sHould briNg e sWeeTest taSte to a persOn..
not sOrrOww..
i m no big persOn..
jUx a gUy w smAll eYes smAll nOse smAll eaRs
i duN haVe e zI ge tO teaCh anI1 anIthing..
bUd jUs waNna teLL u..
i treasUre my freNx..
n i care for theIr feeLings..
nOt thINk n tok n sAy thiNgs w/o thiNkin w woRds
tt migHt piercE iNto my freNx heart..
caUsin 1 to feeL saD n troUbled cos of it..
i feeL haPPiee..
cOs i haVe reaLli goOd freNx bEsIde mI...
lyk albert, chenYang,aLvin,gaOli,eDwIn,JJ,cHS bbaLLers,
wIlbert,4-11 of cHs(2004), 2-4 oF cHss(2002), ROcHe anD ppl..
thaNKs dUdex..
u aLL are oNce a freN
n u aLl wiLl be my freNx 4eVer..
=D
aLlrite.. i shAll sae tiS oNcee..
sOrrie to aLl e freNx i had oNce had coNflicts w..
reaLLi sorriEe..
gaOli..
acTuaLLi..
v lOng agO i waNteD aSk 4 yA forgiVneSs le..
bUd i jux dun haV e guTs to aPoLogiSe..
coS i realLi duN waN lOse a freN tt i haD since p2..
u are reaLli a goOd freN when we are stiLL v goOd freNx..
bUd u sUcK @ tiMes too..
wahHAa..
Bud i sUck more i Noe..
sO i m reaLLi sOrriee abt it..
hOpe to c yA soOn..
wanteD to wIsh u bdae..
bUd dIdnt..
wahHAa..
sO hapPie bdae coWsAt...
tO weNqIAng..
sOrrie 4 BeiNg a bIg mOuth
caUsin mYself to b Not reLLi trUStable..
pAiseI=p
wiLl thiNk MOre b4 i tok e..
wahAa..
to albert..mY besT besT freN
paIseI lehxx!!
i oNli pei gf nv pei u..
u mUst b v saD laa..
wahHAa..
i wILl sPent mOre tiMe w u de..
bUd i wUn neglect gf de..
sO we gO doUbLe date toGether bAa..
wahAHhaa..
tO yAng..
oUii.. how lOng nv meet laiOx..
i stiLL have tO iNtro u mY gf rite..
since we are Best freNx tOO..
wahHAa..
mUSt stArdI hard worss..
tO 2-4 cHs(2002)
sorrie dUdes..
i waS being sUch a bOssY pErsOn in sec 1..
cos of tt class moNitor thIng..
hOpe u alL had 4gIven mi n stiLL wilLin to b goOd freNx of mInee=)
to edwIn..
eehh xiao bu dian..
i m sorrie 4 bULling u lehxx..
wahHAa..
ur mOney i wiLl reTurN u aLL soOn de..
u are 1 goOd paL..
hOpe we pLAy bBaLL tOgetHer sOOn..
cyAa
to JUnjIe..
oUii sob..
go vJ deN nv contacT liaox..
vJ v pOwer ha
lOl..
plAy bBAll k..
to ewAn..
ehh ewaN..
stiLL hate mi aRr..
dUn haTe lehx..
sO lOng e sHI since i waS tt detEstAble guY lee..
iNvite mI to yA hoUse or hOugang plAy bBall lehx..
tO aLL..
i m sorrie 4 waD i haV doNee..
bUd i aSsure u..
i trY to heLP u aLL aS mUch aS i caN when u aLL need my helP de..!!
i definateLi trYy!!
hOpe we keeP in tOucH
n..
~great freNx 4evEr~
n of coS my gF!!
i love u
frOm u n ur freNx,
i learnt hOw to treat my freNx beta..
n mOSt iMportantLi..
i waNn telL u..
nO maTter waD hapPens..
i wiLL dO anIthing to heLp u de..
no maTTer waD haPPens..
i wiLl aLwayS b w u..
sOrriee 4 maKin u angryy wors
thaNKx 4 pUttIn up w mi..
lOl..
*lOve u baby*
12:25 AM
bOrIn daEe..
wad a bOrnin dae..
so siAnx..
yesterdae slept @ abt 2 ++
sO v tireD todae..
woKe up laTe 4 skOol
aCtuaLli is pUrpOseli 1
wahHAa..
cos toDae de lecture is lYk no use de..
i noE lyk tt saE v eviL..
bUd reaLLi..
e lecTure iS lyk..
no 1 is lIstenin laa..
i woUld raTher stArdi myself..
hHAaa..
bUd i nOt goiN to bOn ani MOre le..
cOs duN wan it to bE a xI guan..
i still reacH skOol aBt 45 miNs b4 lesson end loH
bUd e ecture ended earli..
ended rite on e doT i reach e skOol..
den we wenT tO canteEn to eaT w roche n they alL..
eaT fiSh n chIps lehx..
gosH..
realLi gettin fat..
haha..
muSt stop eatin tt le..
bUd i nv eat tt v often oSo=D
deN we wenT down to mUg n do proJect..
so mAny projEcts in pOlY life xiaa..
quite stress la..
hahah..
bUd sOme proJect are fuN!!
lyk LMS..
waHahaa..
i goRt 8/10 for writtEn coM lehx..
v haPPiee!!
goin to be 1 of e hIghest lee..
hehe..
tts e v 1st step to get aLL my As liaox..
wahHAaa=D
todaE gort 4 hRs oF coNtinuous tUtorior xIaa.
v tiRing..
v v v tirin..
dun wanNaa tok abT it lee..
waHahaa
deN after evithiNg i went to pLAy bbaLl!!
woOhoOoo..
pLAy tiLL not v shuAng oSo..
cos my leg gort 1 bister eaCh!!
siAn diaO..
xTx.. v pain..wan saiyang
wahhaa..
todae nv get to c mY xTx..
e dae reaLLi v siAn lO..
bUd i waS thiNKin of yAa^^
n tMl caN c ya le..
nOt tt baD..
wahHAa..
tMl we gO watch ghOst traIn!!
hehe..
feW weeKs aGo cOs of eXams caNt waTch..
bUd nvm..
i fiNAlli found e theatRe we caN waTch le..
xtx haPpie ma??
wahHaa..
realLi lOoKin foRward to tml..
hehe
caN waTch MOvie w xtx..
xTx.. i reaLLi wanna sae..
i duNo wad mY world wiLl be
if u haD nOt apPear iN mY liFe..
u realLi brighteN uP my lIfee..
hehe..
*~ love U xTx ~*
10:33 PM